Plethora of Tranquility

Oh! Hey! Hello! *waves* 👋 😃 Long time no post. I'm not sure if anyone out there is reading this blog, but if you are, I’m SO sorry I disappeared for, like, a year or year and a half. Ugh. 😵 Has it really been that long since I last posted??? Sheesh. 

So much has been happening in my personal life since I made this blog account. Life’s been busy, crazy, and hectic in so many ways that I really haven't been able to keep up with. Some of it’s personal, so I won’t go into those details. I’ve also been sick off and on with one thing and another (sinus allergies, acid reflux, stomach issues, etc). Mainly, I feel like I’ve been struggling to heal from a lot of things. So much has been happening lately that’s drained me emotionally and mentally and been overall taxing on my health in general. I think some of my sickness has spawned from that, as well as from stress and anxiety. 2024 started out horrible, so the past several months as far back as January have been horrific in their own ways. A lot of stress and anxiety. But I've also seen a lot of answered prayers and blessings this year that have left me speechless. (Thanking God for His mercy and grace. 🙌 ) Again, a lot of this is personal, so I’m not going to go into details on a public blog. Life HAS calmed down to a certain extent right now, thank goodness, but the months still tend to come with their own trials.

Been struggling to get back into my writing for a while now. Just within the past few months, I’ve been writing some short fanfics to ease myself back into the groove, which has felt good to do. I’m still going at it even now, so I’m hoping this helps to kick my writing mind into full gear again. I've needed this so bad. I was beginning to wonder what happened to my writing muse.

Planning to go on a mini trip with my cousins this summer, so I’ve been busy preparing for that. SO excited!! I’ve needed this outing so much, you have no idea. Hoping that it helps to heal and refresh me in ways I need to be.

It's hard for me to grasp that we're already halfway through 2024 and the 4th of July is in another few weeks. Crazy!

As of right now, I’ve pretty much pushed all social media out of my life. With the exception of Instagram. But I’m now having second thoughts about even it since they’ve changed their policies to allow AI scraping and theft of copyrighted content. I pulled all of my artwork off my account at the beginning of the month and will not be posting anymore art on there from now on. I’ll just post photos and such. Stuff having to do with collectibles. I’ll continue to be active on there since I still like the platform and enjoy following certain people. But none of my art will ever be uploaded there again unless they give US residents an option to opt out.

But, it feels good having pushed myself away from social media. I definitely have no regrets. It’s been fun and refreshing getting away from all of that and feel like I'm free to live life as I did prior to social media becoming a thing. I feel less stress, less frustration, less anxiety, and more relaxed. Overall, I feel like I can enjoy things in life again and living in the moment more without thinking I’ve got to document it to put on Facebook. It's opened my eyes to see that everything I do doesn't have to be everyone else's business (and shouldn't be). And that I'm the one who decides what should be shared and what shouldn't be. It’s interesting how social media conditions you to basically be stressed out all the time and feel like you've GOT to post it on there and share it with the world. Sort of a digital peer pressure, I guess you’d call it. No more will I be a victim of this feeling. I'm done with it. I've purged myself of it and have no plans to go back to social media.

I really want to get back into blogging heavily again, because I enjoy it so much more than social media. It's way more fun and enjoyable. I feel like it's low maintenance and doesn't require me to always be here to entertain an audience. It requires me to take time and think through my posts and be more creative with them as well as put more substance to them, which is far more satisfying to the writer side of me than quick chitchat of social media. I only have to post when I feel like emptying thoughts. It doesn't require me to be part of an algorithm or toxic environment full of politics, news, ads, bots, spam, and otherwise. My blog space feels like a quiet, secluded part of the Internet that's just for me and whoever wishes to follow my ramblings. It reminds me of how the older Internet used to be before social media took over and ruined everything.

I’m going to TRY and keep this up. We'll see if I disappear again. 🤞